Stories

Tin Can Beach / The Commoner

Through the rain and fog, it wasn’t even possible to see across the harbour from Tin Can Beach. It was silent except for the rolling wind and the occasional horn coming through the fog and rain. 

Sawyer stood on the rocks looking out to where the sky and water disappeared into one another, waiting for a friend – a colleague – to come down from the bar up the road. The wind cut through her jacket – a damp chill that settled and stayed. 

Clattering stones followed the scrape of leather soles on asphalt behind her. Sawyer turned. Her friend – colleague – Dusty Gibbons made his way unsteadily down the rocks. 

Dusty was a cop from the local precinct. He was a leak, a mole – a half-in-the-bag alcoholic with child support payments and a girlfriend with class at the Blush nightclub on Sydney Street. 

Sawyer sometimes wrote for the Telegraph and sometimes Dusty was the best friend – colleague – she could ask for. 

“What’ve you got for me, Dusty?” She asked when he reached the beach and pulled his North Face close. 

“Maybe nothing,” Dusty said. “Maybe a piece that’ll get you a Pulitzer.”

“Pulitzer’s American,” Sawyer said.

“Whatever the fuck then.”

Sawyer waited. 

“I’ve got a woman who says Maury Wodehouse has embezzled millions. That he’s paying out big bribes to keep it under wraps.”

“Who’s the woman?”

“A mistress – a lover.”

“What’s her word worth?”

“Maybe nothing,” Dusty said, “but she says she’s got a letter to prove it.” He held out a slip of paper. “That’s her address. You’ll get her in the afternoon.”

Sawyer took the slip. She looked out over the water. The stacks from Wodehouse’s plant lifted through the clearing fog, red and white. Steam or smoke sifted into the sky. Wodehouse was the city’s sole industrialist. A multi-millionaire. A big fish in a small pond.

“Alright, it’s colder than a witch’s tit out here,” Dusty said. “What’ve you got for me?”

“For that?” Sawyer asked. “Nothing.”

Dusty shook his head. “C’mon. I’m sticking my neck out for you. We won’t look far into an allegation like that but there might be something there.”

Sawyer reached into her pocket and pulled out a twenty. She pressed it into Dusty’s outstretched hand. “Buy your wife some flowers,” she said. “If she’ll have ‘em.”

Eleanor Pidgeon’s apartment was over the crest of the hill on Orange Street, in a Victorian house with misaligned brickwork and a green painted door. She lived on the second floor. When Sawyer knocked, she answered in a red silk kimono. Her hair was wet. She was older than Sawyer had expected.

“Ms. Pidgeon?” 

Eleanor looked Sawyer up and down and then stepped back, opening the door wide. “Come on in, hun,” she said. 

Sawyer stepped inside. The ceilings were high – the furniture was old. The entryway smelled of incense. Eleanor closed the door. She disappeared off the hallway and then reappeared with a towel wrapped around her head. “Take off your shoes,” she said. 

Sawyer slipped from her shoes and followed Eleanor into the kitchen, where the kettle was already boiling. 

“Are you with the police?” Eleanor asked.

“No,” Sawyer said. “I’m with the Telegraph.” 

Eleanor sat at the table and looked at the chipping paint on her nails. “So Dusty pawned me off, huh?”

Sawyer sat at the table across from her. Sunlight cast through the clouds and into the open window with a glare. “How do you know Dusty?”

“How do you think, hun?”

Sawyer nodded, entirely uncertain. “Are you ok talking to me?”

Eleanor shrugged. “I think you should ask yourself the same thing,” she said.

“Why’s that?”

“This story isn’t clean,” Eleanor said. “It’s a messy tale and it’s bound to get messier.”

“Just tell me what you know,” Sawyer said. She set her phone down on the table. “Mind if I record?”

Eleanor shrugged again. “Whatever you want,” she said. “Not that it will do much good until we find that letter.”

“You don’t have it?”

“I did until two nights ago. Then it upped and disappeared from my dresser.” 

“Does Dusty know this?”

“Of course,” Eleanor said. “Why do you think I called him?”

Sawyer paused. “I thought you wanted to show the letter to the police.”

Eleanor laughed. “Oh no,” she said. “I wouldn’t show that to the police. It’s my insurance policy.”

Sawyer paused again. She looked out the window across the gentle slope of flat-top roofs. “But surely they would see it if they found it?”

Again, Eleanor laughed. “I didn’t call the police,” she said. “I called Dusty.”

Sawyer set her pen down. “Do you have any idea where you might have lost it?”

“It wasn’t lost,” Eleanor said, playing with the red rope tied gently around her silk kimono. “It was stolen.”

Sawyer stepped out into the late afternoon. It was already beginning to darken. The rain had turned to snow – the wet kind that soaked through boots and coats with ease. Eleanor was right, Sawyer thought. This story was messy and it was bound to get messier. 

Sawyer walked down to the end of the street and bought a slice. She sat near the window and ate. Then she walked down to Queen Square and sat on a bench, looking down over the curve. Two old men were playing chess at the tables along the top of the park. The snow was falling down on their shoulders and onto the board between them.

She tried to take stock of what she knew: Eleanor Pidgeon was Maury Wodehouse’s mistress; Eleanor had a letter proving that Wodehouse was caught up in something shady; she planned to use it for blackmail, or insurance, or something of the sort; the letter was stolen; Eleanor called Dusty; Dusty called her, looking for a couple of bucks. 

It wasn’t much. She looked down at her watch. It was close to five o’clock. The shadows were beginning to creep in across the park. The wind was starting to pick up. She could feel the damp cold beneath her thin coat. The water had soaked through. She stood and left the park on the Charlotte Street side, following the street north. 

Sawyer was sitting in the corner by the window, watching the clumpy snow come down heavy in front of O’Leary’s. It was piling high along the line of cars curling up Princess. She had a half-finished pint on the table in front of her and a notebook beside it. The writing on the page was useless. 

She took out her phone and made a call. 

“Hello?”

“Dusty, it’s Sawyer.”

“Yeah,” the cop said. “What do you need?” 

“I went to see Eleanor,” Sawyer said. 

“Who?” Pulsing music underwrote his words.

“Pidgeon. Eleanor Pidgeon. The… you know.” She looked up at the bar, where a man was drinking alone, within earshot.

There was a brief pause. “Oh right.” 

“I need to talk to you.”

“About what?”

“You know what, Dusty.”

There was another pause. The music throbbed. “I’m at the club.”

Sawyer looked out the window. “I’m not going down there.”

“I’ll meet you around the corner,” Dusty said. “The bar on Union.”

“Yeah, alright. Ten minutes,” Sawyer said. She hung up the phone and tucked it back into her bag. She closed the notebook and stuck the pen in the coils, then tucked that into the bag too. 

“You didn’t tell me you knew Eleanor.”

Dusty shrugged. He picked up the Alpine and tilted it to his lips, drinking deep.

“She didn’t call the cops,” Sawyer said.

“I’m a cop, aren’t I?”

“I don’t know – you tell me.”

Dusty set the bottle down on the table. He was drunk. “What do you want?”

“She wants to get her letter back, not burn Wodehouse. She’s blackmailing him, or something.”

Dusty peeled at the label on the bottle. “Sounds like a good story to me,” he said.

Sawyer leaned back in the chair. It was plastic and uncomfortable. “That’s not how this works,” she said. “Why did she call you?”

“She wanted me to get the letter back, like you said.”

“She didn’t want to file a report?”

“No.”

“And what did you tell her?”

“I told her I wouldn’t touch this,” Dusty said. “No one ever got anywhere in this town by crossing Maury Wodehouse.”

“How did she think you’d get it back?”

Dusty’s lips curled at the edges. “What do you want me to say?” 

“So, what’s her story? She thinks he hired someone to break in and steal it?”

“Something like that,” Dusty said. “And, if he did, chances are it was a cop. I’m not going down that road.”

“Cops do things like that?”

“C’mon, hun.”

“That’s the real story,” Sawyer said.

“That’s the problem with you journalists,” Dusty said. “Some things are better left unsaid.”

“So, what?” Sawyer asked. “You wasted your time going down and talking to Eleanor, so you thought you’d make up for it by selling the story to me?”

“I’ll be honest,” Dusty said, “you’ve given this more thought than I have.” He finished the beer and set the empty bottle back down on the table. “Look, I gotta go. If you don’t like the story, you don’t like the story. I’m just the messenger.”

Sawyer knocked on the door – three quick taps then two more. It was a rhythm of habit, or a habit of rhythm. Whichever it was, she’d done it before. The door opened. Eleanor Pidgeon was standing in a cloud of incense and perfume. She was wearing a black robe this time. White flowers curled and wound up along the sleeves. 

“Hey, hun.”

“Ms. Pidgeon.”

“Eleanor, please.” The woman took a step back from the door, leaving it open. It was an invitation or acceptance. She seemed accustomed to unexpected visitors. 

“I want to talk you about that letter a little more,” Sawyer said, stepping inside. She closed the door. 

“Have a seat,” Eleanor said, gesturing to a blue velvet sofa along the wall. Sawyer crossed over and sat down, setting her bag down on the coffee table in front of her. Eleanor lit a cigarette and Sawyer thought she might pass out in the concoction of smoke and smell. 

“Mind if I record?” Sawyer asked.

Eleanor paused, drawing smoke from the cigarette and examining the woman on her sofa. “Yeah, alright,” she said eventually. “I don’t see why not.”

“I spoke to Dusty again,” Sawyer said. She reached into her open bag and took out her phone. She set it down on the coffee table and started the audio recorder.

“I’m sorry.”

“So, tell me again what happened to the letter.”

Eleanor looked down at the recorder. “It was stolen,” she said.

“From your dresser?”

“That’s right.”

“Three nights ago,” Sawyer said.

“Yeah.”

“And what did the letter say?”

Eleanor smiled. She took the cigarette from her mouth and held it down at her side, letting the smoke trail up along the length of her robe. “That one’s in the vault,” she said. “For now.”

“Dusty said the letter was about Maury Wodehouse. That he was embezzling money and paying out big bribes to keep it under wraps.”

Eleanor lifted the cigarette to her lips. She drew in and then let a cloud burst free. 

“Who do you think stole the letter?”

“One of his henchmen,” Eleanor said.

“Dusty said it could have been a police officer – a cop.”

Eleanor nodded. “Could have.”

Sawyer leaned forward over the coffee table. “Why would he think that it might’ve been a cop?”

“Because he has them in his pocket.”

“Who has them in his pocket?”

“Maury,” Eleanor said.

“Maury Wodehouse pays off the police?”

Eleanor smiled. “How long you been in town?”

“Have any proof of that?” Sawyer asked.

“Go take a look out the window,” Eleanor said. She lowered the cigarette and turned. She walked into the kitchen. “Want a drink, hun? Water? Tea? Something harder?”

“Water’s fine,” Sawyer said. She stood and walked over to the tall narrow windows along the back of the apartment. She parted the sheer curtain and looked out to the street below. She saw nothing out of the ordinary. She scanned the cars parked along the side of the road and saw it a little down the road: a black Ford with steel hubcaps. Someone sat in the driver’s seat. She could see the dark silhouette through the windshield. 

Eleanor came back into the room and set a glass of water down on the table. Her own glass was clear too but shorter – vodka or gin. 

“How often are they out there?”

“More, recently.”

“They’re watching you?”

“They’re not looking at birds, hun.”

Sawyer went over to the sofa and sat down. “How long have you known Maury?” she asked.

“Better part of ten years,” Eleanor said.

“And what’s the nature of your relationship?”

“I take care of him and he takes care of me.”

“But he hasn’t been taking care of you lately.”

Eleanor looked across the room. “Why do you say that?”

“The letter,” Sawyer said. She leaned back in the sofa, resting her arm across the back. “You’re cashing in on the insurance policy.”

“Everything comes to an end sometime.” 

Sawyer looked at the woman closely. She liked her. She seemed trustworthy, somehow. Sawyer didn’t know many people in this town – and less that she liked. “If I get your letter back, will you give me a story?”

It was quiet in the room for a while. Incense and tobacco burned. The air was thick. Snow was falling softly past the window. “Ok,” Eleanor said. “But we do it on my terms.”

Sawyer smiled. “Where do I start?”

“There’s a cop he works with sometimes,” the woman said. “Lisa Wolfe.”

“Lisa Wolfe.”

Dusty looked up from his sandwich. Smoked meat, Montreal, on a marble rye. “What?”

“Lisa Wolfe,” Sawyer repeated. She pulled out the chair across from him and sat down. “What do you know?”

Dusty looked past her, searching the other tables. They were in the city market. It was not the time or place. “Keep moving,” he said.

“What do you know about her?”

“You’re about to burn the only source you’ve got,” Dusty said. “Get up, or it’s all over.”

“Meet me tonight.”

“You’re in too deep.”

“On the rocks,” Sawyer said. She pushed out her chair and stood. “Nine o’clock.” 

The cop watched her walk away. He’d made a mistake bringing her the story – a lapse of judgement. He’d needed a quick buck, like she’d said. He’d spent it on a two-four. In the end, that was all it was worth, he thought – his life and career: a few too many beers, a hazy night, and a wasted morning. 

Dusty picked up the sandwich and bit into it. Mustard dripped down the front of his shirt. 

Snow fell on the harbour. A hollow bell carried to the shore from a fishing boat in the water. The water was choppy. The boat rocked. Sawyer stood on the rocks at the edge of the harbour watching the water splinter when the red and white boat dropped from the crest of the waves.

She turned and looked back up the rocks to the parking lot behind her. Dusty wasn’t coming. She’d pushed it too far. She walked back up the rocks to the parking lot. There was a single car in the lot. The windows were dark but she saw someone sitting inside looking out over the harbor. 

There was a cop, years before, who brought poor boys from the South End down here on cold nights to keep himself warm. It was a story and a legend and the truth. That was what journalism showed her - there was a kernel of truth in everything she heard. He was caught and he was free. He’d died some years ago. Sawyer walked through the lot, listening to the rocks scrape beneath her feet. The ground was wet. 

She walked through the lot and back up along the road, then went up the street through the South End. The car in the lot turned and the headlights swept across the gravel and then flooded the road behind her. It crawled along, following. Sawyer stepped to the side and looked back over her shoulder. The car rolled to a stop and waited at the intersection. 

Sawyer tried to look through the windshield. She could not see much. The headlights were too bright in contrast. The car was a dark sedan. It was a few years old. That was all she knew. Sawyer turned and continued to walk and the sedan crept forwards through the intersection. It rolled slowly along the road, moving up the hill behind her. 

Sawyer glanced around. There was no one else in sight. Around her were crooked wooden buildings with broken fences and cracked siding. The building to her left was half burnt out and boarded up. Grass grew long and wild between the lots. She looked over her shoulder at the car, then increased her pace. Dark clouds pulled the night sky low.

She could hear the tires crackling over the wet asphalt. When it dropped into potholes, slush splashed. She kept her head low and moved up the hill as quickly as she could. The park, Queen Square, was just a block ahead. She moved quickly towards it. It was on the other side of the street. She would need to cross over. Up there, the buildings were tall and brick. They had freshly painted doors and well-kept lawns. 

Sawyer ran across the street, through the very end of the headlight’s reach. She climbed the slight grass incline to the park. She slipped on the shiny grass, dropping to her knee. She felt the wetness soak through. She kept moving and reached the top. She hurried through the park, cutting across the middle, past the statue in the center. The car on the road behind her sped up and went up to the end of the block. 

Sawyer came out on Charlotte Street and went north. It was a one-way street. The car would not be able to follow. The air was cold against her face. She began to run. The ground was slippery and wet. She turned left after the pizza place and went up the short, dark street on the other side. She ran the length of the block and came out on a well-lit, residential strip. 

She could not see the car anymore. She slowed, breathing hard. When she caught her breath, she straightened up and went north again. The lights were brighter uptown. 

Andy Finn sat behind his desk, twisting the cap on the pen in his hand. “No way in hell,” he said, shaking his head.

“Why not?” Sawyer asked. She leaned forward in the plastic chair. 

“First of all, you don’t even have a story.”

“I’ve got a lead.”

“No, you don’t,” Andy said. “You have a bitter old whore and an alcoholic cop. You know what our lawyers would say if I brought this to them?”

Sawyer leaned back, looking at the editor. He was young but far from eager. “This is big,” she said.

Andy shook his head again. “And, even if you had a story, we couldn’t print it.”

“Why not?” 

Andy laughed. “Do you know who owns this paper?”

“So what? It’s journalism.”

“I’m telling you to drop it,” Andy said. “Or you can find somewhere else to sell your work.” He paused. “Most of our writers have degrees,” he added. “Talent just isn’t enough anymore. Everyone and their mother can write.”

Sawyer stood. She turned and walked to the door. 

“Go out and find a human-interest piece,” Andy said, “something that’ll make Grandma smile.”

The knock on the door was hard. Sawyer went to the window and looked out. There was a cruiser parked along the curb out front. Her heart sank. She opened the door. A cop stood in the hall – a woman.

“Hello?”

“Good evening,” the cop said. Her name tag said Wolfe. 

“What do you want?”

“We need to have a word.”

“Who are you looking for?”

“You.”

“You didn’t even ask my name,” Sawyer said, looking around the door at the cop. She was around the same age as Sawyer, maybe a little younger. Her hair was dyed blonde. She was fit. Sawyer eyed her gun. 

“I know your name,” she said. “Can I come in?”

“It’s not a good time,” Sawyer said.

Lisa Wolfe reached up and pushed the door hard, moving Sawyer with it. She stepped through the door and looked around the apartment. “Nice place,” she said.

“What do you want?” Sawyer asked. She pulled her white bathrobe close and brushed her wet hair away from her eyes. 

“You need to stop what you’re doing,” the cop said. She had her hand on her utility belt, inches from the handle of the gun.

“What?”

“Don’t play dumb,” Wolfe said. “If you keep it up, you’ll be looking at criminal harassment charges.”

“For what?” Sawyer asked. 

“Where are your notes?” 

Sawyer took a step back. “I need to ask you to leave,” she said. Her voice trembled. “Unless you have a warrant.”

“What the fuck are you going to do?” Wolfe asked. “Go get your notes and bring them to me.” She took a step closer, looking into Sawyer’s eyes. “If I come back with a warrant, it’s going to be for something that won’t look good in the papers,” she said. “And we’ll tear this fucking place apart.”

“I’m going to call my lawyer,” Sawyer said, taking another step back. 

Wolfe put her right hand on the butt of her gun. “That’s an admission of guilt, far as I’m concerned. Lie down on the ground and put your hands behind your back.”

Sawyer reached down to tie her robe with shaking hands.

Wolfe took a step back and drew the gun on her hip. She raised it and held it at chest level. “Get down on the ground!”

Sawyer let go of the robe and it fell open. She felt exposed. Tears began to well in her eyes and she tried to fight them back. She got down on her knees and lay face down on the floor. She put her hands behind her back. Wolfe put the gun away and walked out of view. She crouched down and drew the cuffs from her belt. She tightened them around Sawyer’s wrists. They cut in against the bone. 

Wolfe stood and shut the door. As Sawyer stared at the crack of light beneath it, she heard the cop’s footsteps move around the apartment. She heard the woman flipping through her notebook after a few minutes. It was sitting on the coffee table, right out in the open. “There’s nothing in here,” the cop said.

Sawyer turned her head. “I don’t have anything.”

“This is all you’ve got?” the cop asked.

“Yes.”

Wolfe walked back across the room. Her boots were heavy on the floor. They left wet stains behind them. She stooped down beside Sawyer. “If you’re lying to me, I’m going to come back here with some hard sons of bitches who’ll kick your teeth in, if you’re lucky.” She uncuffed Sawyer and stood. 

The door opened and shut. Sawyer rolled over and sat up with her back against the door. She pulled the robe close around her. She could see the snow falling in the dark outside the little window across the room. Tears welled in her eyes.

The morning was dark and cold. Sawyer trudged through the unplowed snow on the sidewalk until the intersection, then she began to walk down the middle of the road. She made her way up to Orange Street. Snowplows beeped and clanked in the distance. 

She went up the steps of the Victorian building and turned the metal handle, opening the green door. She went up the stairs to the second floor and knocked on Eleanor’s door. She waited. Incense and cigarette smoke carried through the door, lingering in the hall. 

Eleanor did not come to the door and Sawyer took out her phone to check the time. It was early. Too early. She knocked again. This time, harder. Again, there was no answer. With fear of the night before in her mind, she tried the handle. The door was unlocked. The handle turned. Sawyer opened the door. It was dark.

When she stepped inside, she reached over and turned on the light. The room was nearly empty. The furniture was still in place – little else remained. No incense burned. She knew right away: Eleanor Pidgeon was gone. Sawyer walked through the apartment. It was empty. She went to the window and looked out to the dark morning. She saw no cruiser on the block.

Sawyer turned and went out the door, turning off the light as she left. She took the stairs down to the bottom floor and stepped out into the street. She pulled out her phone and made a call. The line beeped and then went dead: her number had been blocked. She put the phone back in her pocket. So, Dusty was gone too – someone had gotten to him. Maybe someone with deeper pockets. Or, maybe it was her. Maybe she’d just gone too far. 

Sawyer walked down to the end of Orange and then went straight down through the South End, all the way to the harbour. She tried not to think of Dusty. He was a colleague, nothing more. He was useful ‘til he wasn’t. In the end, what was his word worth? He was a leak, a mole – a half-in-the-bag alcoholic with child support payments and a girlfriend with class at the Blush nightclub on Sydney Street. 

It was too dark to see far ahead and the rain was beginning to fall again. Soon, the snow would melt away. Wodehouse’s plant was somewhere in the distance there, pumping smoke into the air. If only it was a little clearer, she thought. There was a story out there but it was only told behind closed doors.

Sawyer pulled her jacket close. She walked down to the rocks and listened to them clatter as she made her way to the water. She stood there, on the rocks, looking out to where the sky and water disappeared into one another. She had not a friend left in the world and more questions than answers. That’s all that she was left with.

Through the rain and fog, it wasn’t even possible to see across the harbour from Tin Can Beach. It was silent except for the rolling wind and the occasional horn coming through the fog and rain.

Models / Honest ulsterman

The goose left a wake in its path as it skidded across the water. Its feet carved cleanly through it, but its wings beat either side into frothy carnage. Its head was sleek and black; the white scars along its beak stood out against the morning glimmer. Al looked away from the TV, and back at the model ship on the coffee table. He carefully shifted its front sail and dabbed the boom with superglue. As he peered back at the nature program over his glasses, his phone vibrated on the table. He reached down with his free hand and answered the call.

“Yeah?”

“Hey, Al. I know it’s your day off, but we could use your help with something.”

Al looked down at his watch – 11:45 am. He gently removed his fingers from the boom; it stayed in place, “Yeah, Debbie. What’d you need?”

“Well, we’ve just had a few calls from around the tracks. Some kind of a suspicious person hanging around down there,” she paused briefly before continuing, “the other boys are out on calls already.”

“Suspicious, how?” He stood up and walked across the room to grab his coat.

“I don’t know, really. Just some guy. Do you mind heading over to check it out?”

“Yeah, I’m on my way. Whereabouts on the track?” He grabbed his keys and opened the front door.

“Down by Griffin’s, somewhere between the intersection and the yard.”

“Thanks, Debbie.”

--

Al started the engine and rubbed his hands together. Winter was greedy up here; it came early, and always overstayed its welcome. He pulled out of his driveway and onto the road – a strip of dirt that split the unending canola field and a similar wall of pines. Whatever gravel had once protected it was long gone now; flung roadside by ATV’s and pickup trucks.

Saley Ridge was at the intersection of three great wildernesses. To the west lay prairie grasslands, to the north was arctic tundra, and the east was covered in slabs of metamorphic rock – rock that had hardened over years of intense pressure – which sprawled nearly eight million square kilometers. The Boreal Forest stretched over, or around, all of this. The town of Saley Ridge used to be big enough to have its own force, but when the industry died off, the RCMP took over. He was grandfathered in, along with a few others, who had since retired.

Griffin’s was a gas station and gun store, owned by the Griffin brothers. He pulled into the parking lot and entered the store.

“Hey, Al. Beautiful day.”

“Little brisk, though.”

Rylan, the older brother, leaned on the counter, “What can I get you today?”

“I’m out on a call. Suspicious man on the tracks, just up between here and the yard. Wondered if you knew anything.”

Rylan shook his head, “Wouldn’t know anything about that kinda thing.”

“Thought you might have called it in. There were a couple calls.” Al reached beneath the counter and grabbed a chocolate bar. He dropped a toonie on the countertop.

“Not me, no.” He handed Al his change, “You think he’s got eyes to hurt himself down there?”

“You never know. Little brisk to be catchin’ butterflies.”

“Let me know how it goes down there, Al.”

Al left the store. He stopped at the intersection of the tracks and guided his car to the side of the road.  Another car - an old Toyota - sat a few feet away beside the ditch. Al took note of the plate, then began to walk along the tracks towards the yard.

It didn’t take long to see the man. He sat on a stack of steel bar, smoking a cigarette. Despite the cold, he only had a shirt and tie on. His jacket hung beside him. The man didn’t look up until Al was about a meter away. He was clean shaven, and looked relaxed.

Al rested his foot on the track. He wasn’t sure how to handle this yet. “How’re you doing today?”

The man shrugged, “Not bad.”

“What are you doing down here?” Al looked up the rail line towards the yard, and then back the way he came.

“Just sitting around, watching the trains when they come through.”

“They’re not very frequent, buddy. It’s pretty cold out here, why don’t you come back to the road with me?”

The man shook his head, “I don’t mind the cold.”

Brown leaves drifted across the tracks. Al pushed his hands deeper into his pockets, “That your car parked back up there?”

“Yeah,” he paused, “well, my folks.”

“Your folks around here too, then?”

“Just me.”

He seemed harmless, but there was something about his answers that annoyed Al. He pulled out his notepad, “What’s your name, bud?”

The man reached into his pocket and pulled out his wallet. “Dan.”

Al looked at his license, “Hiebert, eh? You any relation to Carl Hiebert?”

“No, I don’t think so. I’m from Pine Falls.”

“Live up there with your folks?” He handed the license back to Dan.

“Yeah, got laid off a few months ago.”

“You’re not married then?”

“No, never took that road.”

“Smart man,” said Al.

Dan smiled, but said nothing. Al felt awkward. A freight train rattled in the distance. “What are you doing out here then, being from Pine Falls?”

“I had a job interview.”

Al sat down on the steel beside him, “What kind of work is it you’re lookin’ for?”

“It was at the mine. Clerk work, I guess. They didn’t think I was experienced enough, though.” He stopped and looked closely at Al, “I worked at the pulp plant for fifteen years. Got promoted to supervisor less than a week before they laid us all off.”

A deer stepped out of the trees across from the two men, just a little down the tracks. It made its way carefully towards the gravel. As it approached the rail line, it stopped and nuzzled the grass with its nose. An eagle swept through the sky, well above the treeline.

“Why don’t you head back home, then? If the interview’s over.”

“I drove all the way out here for it, so I figured I’d take my time before heading back. Anyway, I don’t want the folks to think I’ve given up, eh? No need to worry them by coming home early.”

“I know a few people at the mine, maybe I can put in a word or two.” Al said. He paused, but Dan just smiled, so he kept talking, “Suppose it’s a nice day to be out here, isn’t it? Little fresh air can’t do you any harm.”

“Beautiful. Had a book with me, but I finished it.”

Wind gusted through the half bare trees; Al took a look at the bag between Dan’s feet. “Oh yeah? What’ve you been reading?”

“Ivan Ilych.” Dan reached for his bag, but stopped short.

“That a name or a book?”

“Both, I guess. It’s by Tolstoy.”

“Oh, yeah? I’ve got a little boat called Karenina. Just a model. Never read it, but I always thought it sounded nice.”

Dan looked up. “I’ve always wanted to try that. The models, I mean. I’d have done the trains though; my grandfather used to do those. The track and everything.”

“Worth looking into, if you have the patience for it.” Al flicked at a bug on his sleeve. Crows peppered the treeline across from him. “How was it, anyway?”

Dan coughed, “What’s that?”

“Your book.”

“Oh, good, I liked it. No surprises. You know what’s going to happen from the start.”

“Maybe I’ll read it some day.” Al wasn’t much of a reader, but he meant it.

“It’s short, but it can be a little tedious. Worth it though, if you have the patience.”

Al smiled and stood up, “Well, look, you’re a good guy, I know you’re not up to any trouble. Thing is, we’ve had a few calls. So why don’t you head down to the restaurant for a little while instead? Grab a coffee and a sandwich or something.”

“If it’s all the same, I like it out here.”

Al paused, he thought of offering to buy him lunch, but didn’t want to embarrass him. “Alright, let me just call in and we’ll see what’s going on.”

He took a few steps away and called the station. The plate, and Dan’s record, were clean. Dan smiled as he approached this time; Al extended his hand, and Dan shook it.

“Good luck with the job there, buddy. I really will put in a good word for you. I’m serious about that.”

Dan nodded again, “I appreciate it.”

Al started to walk away, then stopped short and faced Dan again, “Sit out here long enough, and you might just see the last of those leaves fall,” he gestured across the track as he turned away.

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Al pulled back onto the road. He waved as he passed Griffin’s, just in case Rylan was looking out the window. A stray piece of gravel jumped from beneath his tire and slapped the truck’s door. His wheels stirred up a cloud of dust. He turned past the canola field and took the road through the forest. The pine trees stayed green all year round. He turned up the heat, and tried to think of the last time he’d been in Pine Falls. Moss covered shield jutted from the treeline. His phone vibrated in the cup holder.

“Hey, Debbie. I’m on my way in.”

Her response was delayed, “Al, look,” she paused again, “I’m really sorry.”

Al took his foot from the gas and let the truck coast to the side of the road, next to the bulging rock formations, “What for?” he asked.

NUTGrove / Hamilton arts & letters

Ivanna’s broom swept over the dark brown knots on the hardwood floor, leaving a perfectly squared trail through the pine needles scattered across it. The tree was standing in the corner beside the big window, looking out through sheer curtains to the back yard. There was no fireplace in the house, like the one she’d grown up in, so the stockings were hung along the banister of the stairs the next room over. It was Christmas Eve and it still wasn’t snowing – it was one of those years.

John, the boy across the street, had helped her carry in the Christmas tree. She’d bought it in the parking lot of the Canadian tire. It was a pretty good tree – ten feet tall. The man selling the trees strapped it onto the roof of her car for her. Trees were expensive now. When she was growing up, they used to go out to the woods on December 1st to pick one out. She picked it out with her mom, and her dad chopped it down. The boys dragged it through the snow back to the car.

Two months ago, she’d ordered a set of cross-country skis for her daughter. They still hadn’t arrived. She’d been on the phone three times in the past two weeks, but they were no help at all – it was all done online, they told her. Online, all she got back were automated messages. She wondered if Canada Post delivered on Christmas Eve – maybe it was coming by FedEx.

The phone rang. It was Rachel, her daughter.

“Rachel!”

“Hi, Mom. There’s a big snow storm somewhere and the flight’s delayed,” she said.

Ivanna pushed the curtain aside with her fingers and looked out the back window. Green grass stretched to the wooden fence at the back of the yard. “Do they know when it will be able to take off?”

“No,” her daughter said. “The plane hasn’t even arrived in yet. They say it will be here in 40 minutes, though.” Her voice faded away momentarily. “Mom, my phone’s about to die. I need to find somewhere to plug it in. I’ll text you when I find out more.”

“Ok, bye. Love you,” she said, but the line was already dead. She put down her phone and looked at the bare tree and then the needles on the floor, and then got onto her knees to finish sweeping them up with the dustpan.

She dumped the needles into the trash and put the broom into the closet beneath the stairs. She walked back through the house to the kitchen, stopping in the hallway to straighten a picture on the wall, and looked out the kitchen window at the leafless trees and the leafy, winter grass. It was two o’clock – there was still plenty of time. If she boarded at three-thirty, she’d be in by six.

When Ivanna was her daughter’s age, she’d gone to France for a semester abroad. It was the first Christmas that she spent away from home. She was in Strasbourg and spent it with the other students who didn’t go home. It was nice enough, she thought, but it was rather lonely all the same.

Ivanna set the temperature on her oven and then opened the fridge to look at the food that she had prepared. She had a good turkey this year – the past few years she had left it too late and ended up with one that was a little too small. This year, she called the man at the market in November and ordered one. She’d picked it up a few days ago. The oven beeped, and she spooned mince pie filling from a can into the pie shells waiting on the counter-top and then slid them into the oven.

In Strasbourg, she fell in love. She met him in the market, three days before Christmas. She didn’t speak to him at all. He spoke to a friend of hers – a classmate, really – and they made eye contact for a few moments, feet away from one another, before he turned and walked away. She thought about him for three days straight, until Christmas took her mind from him. The next time she saw him was New Years Eve. His name was Gabriel, she found out then. “We have the same boots,” he said to her. She laughed and said “Almost.” She was shy and missed her chance to talk to him more. His friends spotted him across the street and he said that he had to go. His hair was dark brown, he wore a black jacket, and funny little glasses balanced on the bridge of his nose.

Ivanna took the Christmas cookies from the counter-top and set four on a ceramic plate shaped like Santa’s sleigh. She carried them to the front room and set them on a little table near the tree. The box of ornaments sat next to the tree, untouched. She straightened a wicker wreath hanging on a nail on the wall, where the painting by Edward’s grandfather usually hung.

Edward lived in North Carolina. He’d lived there for the past five years. He had a family there now. Her daughter said that he was happy – she said that Alice was nice. Alice. It was a boring name, she thought. But, then again, so was Edward.

She sat down on the couch and curled her legs up beneath her and looked at the tree, ten feet tall. It was a good tree, she thought, for one that came from the parking lot of a Canadian Tire. She reached over to the Santa plate on the table and took a cookie – she could just replace it with another, she decided. She bit into it and stood up.

Two months after New Years, she met Gabriel for a third time. They were a long two months. School was harder in France and she didn’t get along very well with the other students – after a while, it was harder to hide it. She thought about Gabriel a lot. Most nights, before she went to bed, she’d brush her teeth and finish off her reading, and then she’d wish that she hadn’t thrown away the opportunity that New Years gave her. There was a long moment between his comment and his friends. All she had to do was say something. Then, one day, she was walking home from class and she saw him across the road on a bicycle. Her chest seized and she felt her face drain of colour. There he was, she thought, after all this time. He was on a bicycle, though, which meant that he was quickly slipping away. She stopped walking and stared – she couldn’t help it. She wondered if she should chase him. Then, by some bittersweet chance, a car door opened in front of him and he rode straight into it.

Ivanna tidied up the kitchen and took the mince pies out of the oven. She put them on a cooling rack and draped a cloth over top of them. She went upstairs and looked in her daughter’s bedroom. She heard her phone vibrate and beep on the table downstairs. She went back to the kitchen and looked at the clock – 2:40. It was a text from her daughter. Flight delayed 2 hours longer. She brushed the hair from her face and tried to stem the pressure behind her eyes. Two hours – that meant eight o’clock, at the earliest. That was ok, she told herself. It was still plenty of time. Even if she got in at nine, she thought, it wasn’t a big deal. She got a mug and filled it with apple cider and heated it in the microwave.

At home, when she was young, they bought local apple cider from the market every year. They’d heat it in a pot on the stove with cinnamon and cloves. Suddenly, Ivanna remembered the skis. She quickly made her way through the house to the front door and peered through the glass to the porch. She didn’t see anything there. She opened the door – nothing was there. She checked the mailbox for a delivery notice but didn’t find one. Ivanna stepped back inside. She went to the kitchen and took her mug from the microwave. She sprinkled a little cinnamon on top and then went into the living room. She turned on the TV – It’s A Wonderful Life was on, and she watched it for a while as she drank her apple cider.

That day, two months after New Years, when she met Gabriel for the third time, she’d crossed the road and helped him to his feet. He wasn’t hurt at all. After that, they went for coffee and sat together for several hours. The next day after class, Ivanna met Gabriel on a bench beneath a lamppost on a stone bridge across the water. They met two more times that week, and then began to spend nearly every evening together. The evenings were fast and heavy. She told him what she hadn’t told anyone else, and he did the same. There was an intimacy of such intenseness between them that it felt like little else mattered in the world. She was constantly aware that she had less than two months before she went home.

Ivanna checked the time – it was 5:30. She sent a text to her daughter: any updates?? After a moment, she got a response: Pushed back again… Trying to figure it out. Will let you know when I do. She turned off the TV and went back into the kitchen. She lifted the cloth and checked the mince-pies. Then she went back to the front door and checked the step for the skis – nothing still. Green grass bordered the road on both sides – rectangular lots extending from the fronts of little homes. She went back inside and poured herself a glass of wine in the kitchen. Then, she went into the front room and set it beside the cookies on the table. She lifted the box of ornaments and began to decorate the tree.

On those evenings in Strasbourg, every moment was weighted with impermanence. When she got back from France, her parents were separated. They hadn’t wanted to tell her while she was away – they thought that they needed to do it in person. After that, she split her Christmases between two homes. She and Gabriel wrote letters back and forth – they talked on the phone a few times. Soon, life moved on. Gabriel stopped writing as often, and she sometimes forgot to reply. Still, as she lay in bed on long nights she often thought of the wasted months that had passed between their meetings. Ivanna met Edward two years after her return. They were married two years after that.

The tree looked good. She sat on the couch and took another cookie from the Santa plate. She opened her book – The Murder at Hazelmoore by Agatha Christie – and picked up where she had left off. A blizzard descended upon Sittaford House. She read further. She went to the kitchen and poured another glass of wine. She heard a noise outside and looked through the window for the delivery – still nothing. She went back to her book. It darkened outside, and she went upstairs and brought down the few small packages that she had to put under the tree. She ate another cookie and continued to read. When she finished her book, she looked down at her phone. She had another text that she hadn’t noticed come in. Flight cancelled for weather. Dealing with the desk. Will call when I can. She sent one back: OK, love you.

She went into the back and turned on the TV. It’s A Wonderful Life was on. She changed the channel. Commercials. Cartoons. Commercials. Infomercials. Deck The Halls – she put down the remote and left it there. She sometimes told herself that what she had in Strasbourg was young love and nostalgia. The truth was, she knew, that she had never felt like that again. She thought about him all the time. The movie ended and another came on. She watched, and she tidied, and she wandered aimlessly around the house. She filled the stockings, just in case, and refilled the Santa plate with cookies. She washed some dishes and put them away.

At twelve o’clock, she went outside. She leaned against the doorframe and felt the cold air on her face and neck. She pulled her hands up into the sleeves of her sweater. Christmas lights lit the front porches of the houses up and down the street, which stood completely empty and still. She could see lights on inside some of the houses, and shapes shifting behind curtains and blinds. In some houses, she could see the trees glistening. Then, as she looked out over the night, she saw little white specks dangling in the air under the streetlamps. Something wet touched the tip of her nose. She poked her hand from her sleeve and held it out into the cold, and then looked up into the dark sky. Snowflakes drifted down towards her, falling slowly but surely through the cold night air.